like a wave of anxiousness…

2 Jan

i didn’t set my alarm last night thinking that i would wake up naturally around 9 or 10. i am a little embarrassed about it, but i REALLY slept in. i won’t even tell you what time i woke up. is it horrible that the first thought that crossed my mind was “oh fewf! less time i need to try to fill today!”?

[as a side note, i work as a success coach and work out of two schools and so i have had the last week off and have this week off from work. my husband, however, doesn’t. he had today off but for the rest of the week, i will be home – alone – with no t.v.]

i have realized that watching t.v. allows me to pass the time without having to think too much. honestly, the television is my friend – and we are really, really good friends. actually – i think it would be more accurate to say that the television is my babysitter. unfortunately, my dear friend and companion has just died. i think i’m mourning.

i was feeling anxiety ridden today as i walked around the house trying to figure out what to do. should i read? should i bake? should i work out? should i…..

then i was kindly reminded by my husband that we needed groceries. ok – something to do. grocery shopping – check. a couple more hours of time filler.

i was also reminded that we had a dinner date with some artsy friends. an evening of company [ with real life people! ], delicious food, good conversation and working on our art projects.

the rest of this week will be quite the exercise in trying to figure out how to be content with spending some good quality time with me.

i also want to thank everyone for your support and kind words to my last blog! there are a few handfuls of people who will be journeying along with me and i can honestly say that it makes me feel so awesome that i’m not the only person who is going to struggle, grow, and learn to appreciate life in the coming year! feel free to post your progress/struggles/milestones in the comments!

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One Response to “like a wave of anxiousness…”

  1. Jared 01'03'12 at 11'36'AM #

    Yeah babe! The beginnings of intentional quality time with what matters: awesome!

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